Do you ever look back over a certain year or time of your life and wonder where you were when that time was passing? I recently came across this evaluation of my life for the years 2008-2009.
I have another blog on a different website where I post about entertainment, everything from books to movies to music, etc. On this other blog, I recently posted about NKOTB coming back to the airwaves(when I say recently I mean 3 days ago). Now, NKOTB officially came back in 2008...why am I late with the news, you ask?!?! Because my life from 2008 to late 2009 was a HUGE blur and HOT mess!
I was unfortunately in a relationship with someone that, to say the VERY least, was not good for me; we dated from 2007-2009. During this time NKOTB, my favorite boy bad in the entire world, came back to regal their fans with new music, concerts, etc. However because I was so idiotically wrapped up in my relationship with this person, I completely missed out.
I came to realize this recently when I was talking to a friend of mine who went to one of NKOTB's concerts in 2008. I was ecstatic to talk to her about going to their NKOTBSB concert in DC in June and I was patiently awaiting the response I thought I would get from my fellow BH(BlockHead--NKOTB fans)...but to my surprise she had a response of 'been there done that'. So while I'm reiterating to her the HUGE news, she asks me why I'm so excited about something thats been going on for about 3 years!!! And then she basically proceeded to say, "You're always up on entertainment info...WHERE THE HELL HAVE YOU BEEN?!?!?" (NOTE: Huge fail for me on this one LOL!!!) I was stumped for a response to her! I had no idea how I had missed so much!
Then a few days later, I started to really think about it when it clicked! I WAS IN A DRAMA FILLED, RIDICULOUS EXCUSE OF A RELATIONSHIP THAT I WAS SO STUPIDLY STILL PURSUING AT THE TIME!!! I had thought that I was so in love with this person back then that I had wrapped myself and my life around our "relationship". I had lost my connnection with the rest of the world, with myself. I was so focused on pursuing and keeping someone that, at the time I didn't see was so wrong for me.
Don't get me wrong, I'm an independent woman...I'm not the clingy, needy type that this may be sounding like. But when you think you're in love with someone or you're so focused on something whether it be a significant other, a hobby, a goal...it kind of takes over...especially love because it deals with emotions that you mostly don't have control over.
I've since, of course, removed myself completely from this other person and have been single and loving it! I go on dates every now and then, but I like doing me; meeting new people, focusing on what I want to do in life, starting these blogs, staying up on the hobbies and activities I enjoy, etc. I've even come to learn more about myself when it comes to relationships or even just friendships; like what I really want, what I'm willing to tolerate, etc. It's funny how much you can learn about yourself from something that at one point seemed so right but ended up to be so wrong.
What did you miss out on in life when you were preoccupied with something else?
P.S. Late or not...I AM excited for NKOTB!!! ;-)
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